wow.

i dont know where to start. i am just really really pissed. and i have never been in such a bad mood, its unbelievable. i was so excited for my party yesterday, i was just talkin about it all the time and when it was actually happening i was everything else than happy.. i was completely pissed and really couldnt enjoy the evening. it was cute how my "real" friends tried to make me happy and have fun while they were taking care of everything, i appreciate it a lot but i am so disappointed in all the other people. most people dont know when they have to stop drinking whichc really pisses me off, i mean sure it happens to everyone but not at every single party.
actually th party started out nice, just a few girl and one guy were there and we were playing drinkin games. we laughed enough and no one got drunk. we had our fun. after everyone got there it started getting annoying since people came drunk and were screaming all the time. they prefered sitting outside all night and smoke than dancing which is honestly just sad.
well i am happy that especially two friends helped me to put away all the puke and stuff. so that i didnt have to do it alone.. dude it was disgusting. i think so many people have never puke before. we put them to bed and just talked a bit. but it was not possible to chill for long since they kept on puking.
nobody could talk to me anymore due to the fact that i told them to shut up and leave me and i have never been like this before so around four i just went to bed since i had no energy. i tried to sleep but it was fuckin impossible because people wont just the fuck up. i was so angry like never before. i told them so many times but they didnt listen. they just dont have any fuckin respect. its unbelievable and for me those people are "dead", meaning i dont give a fuck about them anymore!
i hate how people just left without even saying goodbye and thank you. i mean come one how fuckin hard is it to say thank you? i organzied a party and saved their halloween, they did a lot of shit, kinda destroyed a table and shit and obviously i was the one who cleaned and took care of it. i mean sure it is sort of my job as the host of the party, but it seems that it is so self-evident for them they i do it, so natrual that they dont even have to say thank you. i think it is just low of these people and i wont invited them again!
well in the end i can just they i am really disappointed in a lot of people and i wont have another party. i wanted to have a birthday party but no thank you i wont at least not in my house, maybe a rent something but im not sure yet.