"you will never know until you try."

listening to really good music and just thinking about life, yeah thats what i am doing right now and i enjoy it :P it is really not easy to be happy if everyone else around me is depressed. I dont know why everyone is like that, but i guess a lot of people just want to get attention. really, it annoyes me, not that i really care but i cannot fully ignore it. Seriously there is so much drama its unbelievable. people who try to make other people feel bad because they are depressed and dont want to see their friends happy or they just blame them. it is so freakin retarded. i dont get who you can blame your friends for your own problems, make them feel bad and shit. its your own business and not your friends'. be strong and deal with your own problems. sure your friends are there to help you but dont expect them to solve them for you. however, i will still be happy somehow and tonight i have practise, im really looking forward to it. i really cannot think about anything else, i guess i annoy some people with it but they have to live with that. it sounds so bitchy but hockey is such a big part in my life. for a lot of girls guys are the biggest part in their life; they talk about it all the time and nothing else.. right now hockey is basically my life, so obviously i talk about it a lot..but of course my friends are really important to me!