calories are evil ...

DONE WITH MY MINI MOOOCKKS! :D:D im happy but i dont think it went too good for me. I am getting my results next week so that is gonna be interesting. I hooope i didnt fail cause i really studied a lot for them and did not have time for anything else not even to work out. As a result of that my whole "losing weight" thing just stoped and i gained a bit again which is really depressing and i feel so uncomfortable again. I actually start liking my legs but now i really do not like them at all.. arghh i hate this feeling. it feels like i need to loose more weight otherwise i cannot be happy with myself. i just have the feeling that nobody can accept me if i look like i do now. i guess it is ridiculous but thats the way it is and trust me i really do not like it. i need to lose at least 1 ½ kilos which is gonna be hard. i want to be able to accept myself the way i am but i just does not work for some reason. i might look like i am very self-confident but believe me i am not. my body is weird, if i work out a lot i gain weight, if i dont really do much i lose weight.. argh hate it. the only thing i can do is eating veryyy little until i lost it and then trying to keep it. so i guess ill be in a bad mood for the next weeks cause im gonna be so hungry.. well life is a bitch sometimes :D but i dont wanna look like a puffed-up something -.-