calories can go and f*ck their selves!

last post was ageeesss ago but i just dont have time anymore, today i came home from scotland. we were playin EM; it was a great experience and we achieved what we wanted to achieve, really awesome. but well i cant bother writing about it right now cause i feel disgusting rigth now. we had to eat sooo much there because we needed a lot of energy. my body couldnt really take it, i felt bad all the time and stuff. i apparently gained 3 kilos, 3 FREAKIN KILOS, i cannot believe it. im disgusted. i mean before that i wanted to weigh at least 2 kilos less and i know its hard to get to where i want to get to but now i have to loose even more. ew ew ew.. nobody can imagine how i feel, really. i dont know wht to do cause it feels like does matter what i do i gain weigth and never loose any. i HATE it!