life can be unfair sometimes.

n i thought about the whole giving and getting thing. I mean i give people a lot more then i get back from them. doesnt matter if they are friends or my best friends i always do everything to make them happy, go always to them, always ask them if they want to meet up its never the other way around. i dont blame anyone, it might be my own fault, i dont know how but i really dont wanna blame anyone. i am just tired of always going up to people and ask if they wanna meet, sure it is nice for them, see that i really care about them and want it to work but think of me. i am the one who feels like an idiot then, because it feels they they dont care about me in the same way. it can be that i just get the whole situation wrong or maybe i just expect too much i dont know. I am always nice towards guys and all they do is fuck me over, every single guy..