hockey 4 life.

happy happy happy, i think that would describe me the best right now im sitting in the car from gothenborg back to helsingborg. i had a really improtant hockey camp this weekend, since now they decide who was good enough for the national team u21. saturday we had around 5 hours practise, with a break in between. afterwards we went to the hotel, showered and ate. we wanted to go to one of the girls house and watch a movie but i felt like shit, so i stayed in the hotel. really, i felt like puking, my stomach and head hurt like hell. i was so scared that i wouldnt be able to play the next day, so i decided to sleep very early. i drank a hot chocolate before going to bed; probably that made me feel a lot better ;p im addicted to hot chocolate, i drink it like everyday hihi. after sleeping that early i felt better the next morning but still not really fit, not even after breakfast. as soon as i came to practise i felt fine again. hockey is the only thing that ALWAYS makes me happy. we had 3 hours practise and then a talk to our coaches. its went quite well, i had so much fun. wow i realized how much i missed playing hockey with a good team. i love love love hockey! what i love about it is that i can be myself. i dont need to put make up on. i dont need to look good because there is no one who jugdes me, everyone is focused on the sport. and i love the fact that it is a team sport, so i always get to know other people and i always learn something new.. we learn from each other. we accept each other doesnt matter how different we are. if i play hockey i forget everything around me, it is like another world for me.. anyways now they have to decide who is good enough and i alread now their desicion but its inofficial so i cant tell anyone if i actually made it or if i have to wait to next year.. i dont need to tell everyone because i dont need people to feel sorry for me in the case i didnt make it. however now i am on the way back as said before, my body hurts, especially my back but it was worth it. tonight im going to town and eat with my family and afterwards im meeting up with blacki. i think a good, look girl talk is needed. im really lokking forward to it. i love talking to this girl, it makes me feel a lot better and she always listens to me and tries to help me just as i do it too. i love her! dont have any problems right now, scool is going good, hockey makes me happy and i have awesome friends. what do i want more? nothing. i dont know why but im looking forward to next week.