life is like a rollercoster.

it feels like i am slipping apart from most of my friends. i dont know why, maybe because i spent so much time in hockey at least at the weekends. my friends go out and have fun while i am playing hockey. Of course i want them to have fun and stuff but if they dont even ask if i wanna come with them it just feels weird. I hate it, i dont blame them, i blame myself. I am just not close to them anymore, i feel ignored but thats just the way it is. Maybe i just ignore them with hockey. I dont know. I was so freaking happy all the time and thn i went to school and everything just fucked up.. I just want to play hockey and be happy!