what the hell is wrong with me?

i dont know what it is but something is wrong with me. i dont feel comfortable in my body at all; i just feel very fat and really not pretty. im not saying that because if want compliments, i dont really like getting compliment, im saying it because i mean it..people can tell me that i have a nice body but i dont believe them since i dont feel like it and it is hard if you have someone who tells you that you look fat. it is strange because in english we talked about anorexie and you can see if someone is on its way to this sickness if someone counts calories, always weights itsself  and write it down and look in the mirrow and check out its body all the time.. that is exactly what i do, but nobody really knows because i just do it at home. but the thing is that im not anorexie at all, i eat a lot. i dont get it, it is really weird. i have to think about food all the time; i have to plan what im going to eat during the whole day and have to write it down. i have never really talked about it because i would just annoy people and people keep on saying i just do it to get compliments. but its not true, i really dont like my body, understand it or not. if i could change one thing on my body it would be my stomach, i mean look at it, its ugly and fat. maybe nobody can really see it but i do and i feel it. its discusting, but i keep on eating. i hate it. i really dont get why im doing that to myself, i mean check my body all the time, count calories and all the shit. it gets so annoying but i cant stop it..