“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.”
do i really want that again, especially now after all what happened. i am just confused and dont know what to think about you anymore. i should follow my heart, but how is that possible if i cannot feel anything? i give up so easily nowadays. i dont understand myself, i got so hurt and have been through a lot of shit without poeple really knowing, but i am stupid and just cannot leave the past behind me.. why can i not let go on you? i am sure there are more beautiful guys which would care more about me but all i want is you and nobody else. it hurts to know that we wont get back to what we had but i still want it to happen again. but it wont. i have to move on, but how? most people are probably wondering why i make such a big deal of it, i honeslty dont know and i thought it would easier than it actually is.. there are so many questions that are not answered and i will never get an answer to them. i dont think you know how i feel but i guess guys in general dont think about the way girls feel, they dont understand us and our emotional side.. but as a good friend of my always say: "life goes on.. and the world keeps turning."
nobody is perfect and you should not try to be. be yourself and dont change for anyone!
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