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i am surprised that i could keep myself from freaking out the last days. i dont know why but it seems to be so normal for them to just diss others all the time. it is not like you did not know before that you dont have time and dont fucking tell me your parents did nto let you go, we both know that a lie. just tell me to my face that you cannot bother, that you dont give a fuck about our friendship or that im just too boring for you. you always expect me to understand your reasons for not coming; telling me that its not fair that i am pissed because you dissed me for a guy or homework that you could have done a week ago..
i dont get why you cannot just talk to me when you are with me, why do you always have to have your phone or take my laptop to be on facebook? i dont get it, i thought you come over because you want to talk to me and not your friends on the internet. really i was so close to freak out but i dont wanna waste my energy because of you anymore. next time you can just stay home since there is no difference if your with me and talk to your friend on facebook or if your alone and are on facebook. I hate how people cannot be without technology for some hours anymore, how there always has to be a phone or something, its pissing me off. i love how little children can play without constently having technology around them and i miss my childhood because of that.
i really dont know what to say anymore, there is so much that pisses me off right now.