hmm..

i dont know to who i should go and talk about it anymore since everyone seems to get annoyed when im talkin about how i feel or they just dont give a fuck.. im in a very weird mood, im actually happy, i mean the break starts tomorrow, the weather is getting better, im slowing getting over him, some of my friends really make me laugh, hockey is going fine, im getting more self-confident etc, but there is some sadness in me. If i listen to sad music no one can talk to me because im about to cry. i dont really know why. usually you think of someone when you listen to this typ of music, you think of what has happened or something like that but i dont, i dont think of anyone. i think more about my friendships, i guess that is what makes me sad. i just expect to much from my friends, i wnt them to listen to me and my problems all the time and even though they say that they like to listen i can see and feel that they get tired of it, you can tell me whatever you want..im not stupid. i dont blame it on anyone else, really. i need to learn how to handle my own problems.. it all sounds so stupid when i write it and i cannot really explain how i feel