blääh.

being on a diet for so long is a bitch. i mean yeah you get used to not eating a lot of candy and other unhealthy food but i got to a stage where i am soo freakin hungry all the time. the only problem is that i cant eat more cause i still want to loose weight. right now it more feels like im gaining some again which really is not good. i guess i will never be happy with my body. i hate how low my self-confidence is. i am still afraid of gaining weight.. my stomach hurts a lot lately and i need to eat more but i just cant. i know i would be unhappy again. ah i hate this situation cuz to me it is a lose lose situation.. just now i feel so ew once again, i guess i have already gained 0.5 kilos since friday and i really dont want that! well i gotta weigh myself soon and thn i will see :/ ..