what is this?

why the fuck are tears in my eyes? what the hell is wrong with me, i dont understand anything anymore. i hate you, for acting around me like you do, i really do. why is it so fun for some people to see me like that, i dont get it.. you are such a player. i want the past to be the past, i dont want it to happen again. the only thing that happened to me last year was getting hurt. it seems to be so much fun for you guys..